Sunday, January 22, 2012

Slow down, please.



The little I see and hear makes me long for the real world, the feel of the wind, the real adventure!


Coffee at twelve, sunrise with a hug, memories of faraway lands!

New faces, different traditions and color!

A train, a cart, jolly bus rides and lovable walks!

Food and accessories! Moonlight and the beach!


Longing desires waiting to happen. Desires that would be picture perfect only when blended with the freshness of youth. Years of toiling only to pile up the green paper and temples at sixty doesn’t count for an adventure.


Grey walls and coffee mugs decay the already decaying brain. It needs oxygen. Not money. Not fame. Not any job. The least one can do is keep it alive.


The alarm, the being late to work, the gossipy co-workers, the coffee, the dumb desktop screen, the boss, the same monotonous work, the getting tired part, the I-wish-I-was- regretting part, the money-hiding-our eyes part, the traffic jam, the left-overs and the night sleep. No one ever dreams of this. Contrarily, one knows none who does it the other way!


Life seems to be running at the fast-forward mode. Let’s slow down, please. Let’s look around, a bit.


Care to enjoy the sunrise at the beach? Try some tender coconut, plant a new tree, visit the museum with a friend, help a stranger, buy a beggar some food, that’s even better than money, and marry someone you love. Like it’s said, little things are those that will seem big at the end.


Love seems to be at the verge of extinction! Love for parents, for siblings, for your land, mainly love for your own self. It all seems lost. Materialistic love is sailing on the exponential curve! Let’s love ourselves. It’s the little we can do for our own self!


Travel a lot. Enjoy the rusted iron smell of the electric trains, a chit-chat with a stranger, walk the summits and wear your cloth of comfort. Enjoy the food you eat. Chuck the diet and become friends with the nature. Green and blue! Fresh and yellow! The sun will shine health onto you. Make time for yourself. Love thy life. Celebrate life. After all, we all have been walking towards our grave since our birth. It’s a journey meant to be celebrated!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Trapped!


Let me out and let me breathe..

its time i begin to live..

need to flutter my wings and smell the flowers..

and dance those moves and be a part!

Mem-0-Rism!



Searched through red, blue, yellow and green!!

yu were no where to be found...

the Gods, above the clouds, mocked!

i searched again, while their laughter's filled the skies..

yu were only a lil droplet, i din't realise..

but yu made a spectrum
of memory , I'll never forget!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Cynical



*shrsh* *shrsh* *shrsh* *shrsh*

The shiny blade smoothly cast out the curled wood…

The chiseled graphite withering from its converged end…

Though only a flake, life lingered, I felt…

Brittle and weak…

A faint sense of self association…

With a deep sigh, I threw it away…

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Hmmm....


A bubble that’s so hard to break….

Limbs tied with ropes that seem invisible…

Running short of air…..

An urge to act fast…..

No sound but struggle within...

With all might, I broke open the bubble…

Only to realize that I pop opened to dense, dark and strange waters...

Pressure crushing my body…

Movements difficult in that thick medium…

Blurred vision…

I breathe in that heavy liquid…..

NO….. I shouldn’t…. I need to reach for the surface….

But am drowning… drowning deep inside……

Lungs straining with pressure…

The acidic feeling of liquid entering my wind pipe…

Half conscious…

Falling deep inside…

Limbs attempting in vain to push myself to the surface…..

I breathe in more liquid….

One final breath……

& I broke free….



- Whoa.. watta dream-




Tuesday, January 26, 2010

LIFE – A DRAMA!!!




Greetings to all who come across…
Smiles to everyone, with enthu not lost…

Jokes cracked, brings bubbles of laughter…
Sometimes, acting a dunce too, doesn’t matter…

Worries, forgotten in a jiffy…
Smile, that of an innocent silly…

Defined as happiness and mellow by the ones around…
Within, alone knows the truth that’s borne…

A heart, sensitive and fragile…
Yet broken again and again with style…

Troubles that doubles…
‘Time not spared’, clan mumbles…

Smiles of pain…
Tears in vain…

Behind the veil, all hidden…
Smilingly, reduce others burden…

Drama, I choose…
Life, continues…

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Life is B.E.A.U.Tiful :)




A moment of silence…

Activities, around I sense…


Reality I face…

At a slower pace…


Life bright and fine…

My partner smiling I find…


My children leading a life so gay…

With their toddlers playing at bay…


Often the smell of hospital…

At times forgetting my spectacle…


Arm chair and back pain…

The same old balcon and the walk lane…


A peep into the past…

Memories that long last…


Someone who seemed long forgotten…

Still lingers in that decayed brain…


First one to give me butterflies in the stomach…

Also the one to break my heart, blame my luck…


Blame, its so lame…

Life, that’s the name…


Everything happened for a reason…

Experience, I gained from season to season…


Used to be a memory that gave pain…

Later I considered it gain…


I regret not those days, which once made me smile…

Cause I know, its no fun to travel a boring mile…


With smiles and tears I made a journey so wonderful…

Counting my days, I realize life is beautiful…

Sunday, January 13, 2008

SILENCE AT LAST!!!





Felt you were always the odd one out?? Most of the time the answer is ‘yes’ … But later u thought it was just your imagination…. But still something inside u says it wasn’t???U think u complicate things?? U think the problem is with u?... felt lonely…sad… not always but sometimes… especially when u r depressed??? Had experiences like… talking to yourself?…losing yourself when u ought to be concentrating in your work?… clapping your hand on to your fore head all of a sudden and then u realize that your friends are looking at u as a ‘weirdo’?? Complaints from people that u always look depressed?... most of the time lost in your own world... thoughts popping into your head… pictures flashing in your mind… you are very much occupied with yourself???
When you open out to someone, u find yourself stupid??? Shocked when friend tells you that u are short tempered??? Woke up in the morning having dreamt the weirdest dream??…. When tried recollecting it… all felt blank… just traces of it lingering in your mind??? Always desired a dream less sleep?? U feel weird… again confused whether its your imagination or it’s the truth??? You come up with awful thoughts which you are scared to spill out??? Ever found yourself in a bewildered state when one of your fellow mates confess that he/she is scared of u??? Wanted to run away to some place where there is no other soul??? Ever felt like why it is always u… let it be home or work place or with friends… its always u… u who is being blamed for everything??? Is there a voice in your head which keeps talking to u??? When u are under depression or when u are confused, this voice worsens everything??? Have u felt like banging your head with something hard during such times??? Was silence the only thing u wanted??? All u wish is to stop that voice??? Do u visualize yourself stuffing huge lumps of cotton in to your head??? U wanna shout out loud????

How does it feel?? Fictious?? Or funny??? Hmmm…
I m quite ashamed to admit this, but when I m under depression I experience such stuffs…. All I do to stop that voice is listen to good music… Once when I was quite disturbed I tried listening to music as usual… Believe me I was not able to concentrate on the music. My mind was filled with thoughts…. I was not able to hear the music… its that voice in my head I heard…not the music. Neither was I able to cry nor show any emotion… I was confused… frustrated… I felt myself empty… numb… I was starring into nothingness… I was not able to submit myself to the melancholy I was listening to [which I usually do…]. I felt something heavy in me… and that echoing voice in my head made me feel terrible.


I slowly switched off the music. Still feeling empty and disturbed, I tried to sleep. I couldn’t find a pillow so laid on my mom’s lap. Know what happened?? It felt like heaven. The warmth of her body surrounding me like a shield… Some unknown energy entering my body… the emptiness being filled with happiness…My mind was blank. Her soft hands on my forehead, slowly brushing my head… I could feel the care in her touch. I almost felt like the baby in the womb… someone is there… to care for me… to love me… to protect me… to hold my hands… to accept me the way i m… and that voice… it was no where to be found… what more would I want??? I was really happy… silence at last… on the very lap of someone who truly loves me… wish time had stopped the very moment… hmmm… this silence is enough… I don’t need anything else………….